Save
Margaux looks around the table; this is not working. All of a sudden she’s thinking about a safe room, something she’s only heard of but suddenly wants: water, oxygen, bulletproof door, dead bolts, a thousand books. Utterly quiet. Completely silent. No girls she barely knows in saggy leather pants, no girls in mesh strippers’ gloves and jeans sanded thin as a bee’s wing, and no girls who can’t stay home one night a year because they are always and forever out. On their way to. Coming from.And then her heart open. Just a little, but it does. Because she remembers all that. How she felt then: the self-reproach, the utter confusion… That’s why her heart opens. For those girls at the table who always feel baffled and sad, tender and malign, repulsive and desirable, innocent and contemptuous of innocence.So she cries. For them, mostly. For herself a little… everything hesitates. So that for a second there’s no sound in the enormous room but that of Margaux sobbing.
